Today is a bad day….
Actually today I am having a really bad day, I just keep thinking about what you did with that girl. It’s just really bad because I feel like your thinking about her all the time because you were so infatuated with her. I keep comparing her to me and I know that I am not in the best shape….and she probably was your ideal woman. You couldn’t just walk away from her you fell for her I know you did. I can feel it, you for days talking to her consoling her and caring about her not me at all. It just hurts and I don’t want you to think that everything is ok. It’s not I am still hurting every time I think, it’s on my mind all the time. I sit here and think what the hell does he want from me and the only thing I can come up with is the kids. If you truly were in love with me I would be on your mind and in your heart at all times just how you are in mine. But I wasn’t at all last week. I look through my emails and my phone and realized you never really called or emailed like you use to, you were to obsessed with her. It just hurts so much to know that you put her first after everything we have been through together and what we have you never thought of me. You can sit there and say that you think I am sexy and beautiful but in all reality I can’t believe that. All you thought about last week was her, never me….so how am I to believe that you think of me like that. I feel numb today, I feel so weak and stupid. I feel like I am not sure of anything of where I might be in life, who would be there for me. I can’t even imagine me and you being together till we are old because I don’t think you love me that much. The first piece of ass you get a chance in having you might get your moment of weakness again. You felt so sorry for her over what she has been through in her life, but what about mine you know what I have gone through and how it still hurts me but there it is again you never thought about me. You hurt me more but what can I expect my life has been a rollercoaster of hurt and disappointment, I should have expected it. I trusted you and I thought that you would be the one person who truly loved me, the one person who wouldn’t hurt me. You did not once but twice, over what nothing…..I can’t believe that she was nothing to you she was everything at the time. You didn’t cheat on my once but twice….if she didn’t go crazy would there have been a second, third or fourth we will never know because you didn’t tell me out of guilt you told me because I was going to find out anyways. I am going against what I believe in by staying with you, I feel like a hypocrite.
